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[06 Oct 2005|04:31am] |
Have I got a lot to write about in my next journal entry or what?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Life is so crazy. I know a couple people who are going to be mad at me... but, no one really understands. Only two people will ever really understand our relationship... and that's ME and HIM.
Tonight was so amazing! Buttt it was also a little confusing... whatever. Just being in his arms and hugging and kissing him was the best feeling in the world. Geez, how I have missed that boy. It's like nothing changed but so much has changed. We didnt argue or anything. I feel like we've known eachother for so long... but, it was like seeing him for the first time. I love that boy with all my heart. I always have loved him. And a part of me always will. :D
I also feel like crying. I'm not going to rush anything or expect anything. I'm just going to let things go as they go. Let whatever happens, happen. That's the best thing to do, right? RIGHT?!...
yeah yeah yeah... details & what not later.
:D:D:D:D:D:D
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[06 Oct 2005|04:08am] |
“So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day. "
-The Notebook
I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I,
And if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped.
Eventually all the pieces fall into place, until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment, and know that everything happens for a reason.
You know it doesn’t always end like the movies, -- if it doesn’t then what are we living for??
"I am good but not an angel. I do sin but I am not the devil. I am pretty but not beautiful. I have friends but I am not the peacemaker. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to Love." -- Marilyn Monroe
You can only paint with the colours you’ve been given
“Work like you don’t need the money, love like you’ve never been hurt before, and dance like nobody’s watching.”
"None of us knows what the next change is going to be, what unexpected opportunity is just around the corner, waiting a few months or a few years to change all the tenor of our lives."
-Kathleen Norris
"Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours."
-Swedish Proverb
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it's at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others.
-Audrey Hepburn
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[04 Oct 2005|03:16am] |
Love is bullshit.
And so are YOUUU! :)
I've come to the conclusion that I really hate people.
With the exception of a few people. I'm sure they know who they are.
My birthday is coming up... October 21st. ;)
I expect something from all of you that read this. :)
ATLEAST a 'happy birthday'.
&&& I have one "true" friend... Courtney.
The rest of them are just full of fucking shit. Thats the nicest way to put it. I dunno? Prove me wrong...
COMMENT ANYMOUSLY:
1.one secret-
2.one compilment-
3.one random thing-
4.love note-
5. lyrics to a song-
6.how old you are-
7.how long we've been friends-
8. a hint to who you are-
Yeah, just do it.
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[22 Sep 2005|11:36am] |
Just thought everyone would love to know that I'm still alive. :)
Well... Jerrad and I will never be together again. :) He called me about a week or so ago and said "Do you want to die?", it was actually pretty funny. I really dont know why I put up with his crap for so long. I'm not going to dwell in the past and try to make things work out with us because I wont allow myself to be put through everything again. Most of you dont really know about our relationship. Just know that Jerrad was a psycho mother fucker and I thank God i'm still alive today. :D I'm a happier person today because I finally got up the nerve to leave him. So yeah, props to Angellll.
...the bad part about is... I DO still miss him sometimes. Maybe I just miss the attention. Whatever though, there's other fish in the sea.
Matthewwww... if your reading this... where the hell are you?!
I miss you dearly and we need to set up a day to hang out.
Hell, i'll even let you take me out to lunch or dinner... or BOTH! :)
hahaha, I love you though. &&& I was serious about lunch/dinner.
Why do people lie? Is it to make you look better than me? Do you think it makes you look cool? Do you think you'll actually get away with it? Geez, I try to give people the benefit of the doubt or whatever. I actually went out of MY way to be nice to YOU and I took up for YOU when people would tell me that YOU werent the friend I thought you were. Bitch, I should shoot you. I'm not in high school anymore, therefore I dont play the high school games that you obviously do. So, let me break it down for you. We were doing fine in our little "friendship" and I actually considered you one of my "best friends". But trust me, I know what all this is about. It's about that night I hung out with your "old friend". If you had a problem with it, you could have told me. There is nothing going on between us. We havent done anything, trust me sweetie... I'M not the one you need to be worried about. :) But believe me, you only thought you could get away with lying on me. I know everything you ever said. I know you called his sister and told her that I "might be pregnant by either him or Jerrad"... thats funny, considering we never had sex... and never will. Your about to have a damn baby, dont you think its about time you grew up? Dont come crying to me when your boyfriend leaves you or cheats on you... AGAIN. I dont have anything to say to you. DONT call me. DONT try to be my friend. Like TI said, "you dont know me". hahaha, seriously though.
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[02 Aug 2005|03:04am] |
Yeah, so I had to go to court today for a speeding ticket and the judge was like "arent you going to ask me something" and I was like "you mean like about youthful offender" annnd i figured I couldnt get it b/c i'm 19 AND i've had youthful offender twice already, so i wasn't even going to ask... so I told him and he said I was "too honest"... buuut he gave it to me anyways. :) YAY!
So, that was the good part of the day.
I went and saw Jerrad tonight. I really dont know why. Yeah, maybe cause I still love him. Dammit. I'm stupid. I'm REAL stupid. How do I ever expect to get over him if I still go to his house and spend time with him and have sex with him? We arent together but we act like we are. It's like... he doesnt want me to know anything he does b/c its 'none of my business' yet he can go through my phone and answer it and cuss at people... yeah. Fetzer called my phone tonight and Jerrad was a fucking jackass towards him. I dont know what to do. Maybe I'll just stop talking to him for like a week and then think about what I really want. Dammit. Sometimes I wish I never met him. But other times I'm glad I met him and got to spend 9 months of my life with him...
After awhile you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love. You begin to learn that kisses dont always mean something and promises can be broken just as quickly as they are made and sometimes goodbyes really are forever... :(
...I'm so confused...
No one ever said falling in love would be this hard...
Assholes, why didn't anyone warn me?
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[01 Aug 2005|03:32am] |
Saturday I got off work at about 10 and came home and changed my clothes, then I had to run to Enterprise to pick up some stuff and then made it to Courtney's house at around 11:30. We went to a party in Clayhatchee or however you spell it for about 30 minutes and then we go to Fetzer's and hang out with him and Phillip for about an hour. Then we went to Enterprise and hung out with QP and his hott friend. Then we hung out with Tron for a little while. Thennn we went to Courtney's house and slept all day. :)
I have court today... August fucking 1st at 3:00 for a damn speeding ticket in Daleville.
Yeah, so I fucking hate Jerrad and I hope the stupid bastard dies. :)
Seriously.
I'm so done with his stupid bullshit. I'm done with his lies. I'm done with his controlling and jealous ways. I'm done with it all. I'm done with him.
Dont get me wrong, I do still love him and have feelings for him. But, I feel like I'm a better person without him. As hard it as it is to let go, I know I'll be happier without him. Yeah, fuck love.
The first step is admitting you have a problem and HE was the problem.
Goodnight.
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[27 Jul 2005|12:30am] |
I'm lazy.
I REALLY dont feel like updating, buttt there is really nothing else to do.
I really hate some people. People are so damn fake these days. You can't trust just anyone. Don't you hate when you think you know someone buttt they turn out to be a totally different person? Yeah, it sucks. Fucking bastards.
I LOVE MATTHEW WITH ALL MY EFFING HEART! :)
He rocks my cock and that's all that matters.
Matthew, call me. Let's hang out. Let's go steal a truck or something. :)
Anyhow... my sister is leaving tomorrow for Brazil. I'm really going to miss her. I mean, who am I going to go cry to when something happens? But really, Ashley... you are going to have a blast in Brazil and you know you can come home whenever your ready. Don't be scared. Be strong. :) Your a head buster. I love you.
"My weakness is that I care too much". Yeah, I really do. Sometimes I wish I didn't care at all. I HATE YOU. :) Die, please?
I hate you but I love you. Kinda crazy, huh?
I'm in a really bad mood. Can you tell?
Someone call me. Someone hang out with me. I need to get my mind off of stupid pointless shit.
I'm going to go now before I say something I really dont mean.
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[22 Jul 2005|02:49pm] |
Yeah. I'm bored & dont feel like updating.
I will later though, I promise.
Erase all the x's the last person put for their answers,
& fill in with x's for your own answers!!!
You are
[X] really short under 5'2
[ ] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'7''more medium then short
[ ] in between 5'7" - 6'
[ ] tall
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[X] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] black
[ ] brown
[X] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] bluish/gray- eyed
[ ] glasses
[ ] contacts
[ ] braces
[X] piercings
[ ] tattoos
[ ] short hair
[X] med. hair
[ ] long hair
Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] italian
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] armenian
[ ] english
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[X] german
[X] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] Native American
[ ] Russian
[ ] British
[ ] Swedish
[ ] African
[ ] Peruvian
[ ] hungarian
[ ] thai
[ ] Czech-Slovakian
[ ] norwegian
[ ] Welsh
[ ] Chilean
Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[ ] khaki
[X] pink
[ ] yellow
[ ] black
[ ] green
[ ] blue
[ ] white
[ ] silver/gray
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
Some sports/physical things you HAVE done?
[X] soccer
[X] cheerleading
[X] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[X] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[X] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[X] playing in the mud
[X] playing music (drumming, piano, singing, bass etc...)..
[ ] hiking
[X] kayaking
[X] camping
[X] horseback riding
[X] tennis
[X] volleyball
[ ] martial arts
Your personality is sometimes...
[X] annoying
[X] talkative
[ ] shy
[X] funny
[X] serious
[X] bubbly
[ ] spazzy
[X] fun loving
[X] laid back
[ ] strict
[ ] hyper
[ ] weird
[X] ditzy
[X] sarcastic
[ ] slow
The music you like is?
[ ] classic rock
[X] rap
[X] rock
[X] pop
[X] country
[X] hiphop
[X] r&b
[X] slow jams
[X] Christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[X] punk
[ ] metal
[ ] reggae
[ ] emo
[ ] Latin
[ ] hardcore
[x] ska
[ ] 80's
[ ] indie
[ ] screamo
[ ] reggaeton
[ ]..not really sure
The pets you have had?
[X] cat
[X] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[X] ferret
[X] rabbit
[X] fish
[X] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] horse
[X] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] none
[X] turtle
[X] hamster
[X] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] other
Clothes you like to wear are?
[X] plain tshirts
[X] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] high heels
[ ] sneakers
[X] jeans
[X] pj pants
[ ] boxers
[ ] underwear
[ ] dresses
[X]mini skirts
[ ] medium skirts
[ ] long skirts
[ ] watches
[X] hoop earring(s)
[ ] long earring(s)
[X] toe socks
[X] flip flops
[X] halter tops
[ ] stilletos
[ ] band tshirts
[X] shorts
[ ] boots
[ ] arm-warmers
[ ] corsets
[X] club/cute shirts/tanktops/etc.
[X] baby tees
You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] indie
[X] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] ghetto/gangsta
[ ] Rudeboy
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[X] ditzy
[ ] hyper
[X] happy
[ ] slutty
[ ] suicidal
[ ] poser
[ ] not sure.
[ ] everything
[ ] kandy kid
[ ] Redneck
[ ] Pot head
[ ] jock
[ ] your own style
You eat?
[X] dessert
[ ] no meat
[X] diet stuff
[X] healthy foods
[X] junk foods
[ ] a lot of carbs
[X] meat
[X] salad
[X] seafood
[ ] cheese
A typical friday night...
[ ] mall with friends
[ ] partying
[ ] watching movies/movie night
[ ] going to the club
[ ] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[X] hanging out w/ my friends
[X] hangin out w/ your bf/gf
[X] working while your friends are out having fun!
Online, you use:
[X] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[X] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[X] jk
[X] ttyl
[ ] lylas/lylab
[ ] g2g
[ ] ^.^
[ ] T_T
[ ] XD
[ ] Umm....
[ ] hah
[ ] heh
[ ] oof
[ ] Meh..
Yeah.
Work tonight from 6:30-9:30.
I actually get off early on a Friday.
I'm VERY excited. I dont have plans.
I was going to go see Jerrad, but I went and saw him last night instead. But who knows, I might end up in going to see him tonight too. And to fill you in on the Jerrad situation, we broke up... but, i'll write more about that bullshit later. :)
I miss Fetzer, JJ and John. We need to hang out ASAP. :D
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[17 Jul 2005|07:14pm] |
Yeah, So i was going to do a quick update and THEN get ready...
but being that it's 7:15 &&& I have to call Jerrad at 10:30,
I'm going to go ahead and get ready and then update when I get home.
...until then...
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[16 Jul 2005|03:40am] |
I lied.
It's nearly 4 am & I'm still up.
As a matter of fact, I just made some food.
&&& For now, i'm going to go eat the food.
Then I'm seriously going to force myself to sleep.
Work from 6:30 pm till 12 am.
Can't wait. HA.
Deuces.
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[16 Jul 2005|12:04am] |
Jerrad and I are offically back together. Our 8 month anniversary was the 13th. I really do love him... but, sometimes I feel like I care so much and he barely cares? I guess I better stop being such a bitch to him. Relationships are so full of ups and downs. He's in Georgia until Sunday night with his faimly for a family reunion. I miss him, but maybe this weekend apart will do us some good.
I got off work early tonight... at around 9:30 to be exact. And I havent done shit tonight except for sit at home doing nothing. I talked to Jerrad a couple times, but he couldnt talk long because of fucking roaming charges. Roaming charges are bullshit.
I got a speeding ticket the other night in Daleville. I was doing 80, but he gave me 75 in a 65 because I rock. :)
JANESSA IS COMING HOME THIS WEEKEND AND I CAN NOT WAIT! :)
I'm going to go to sleep now. There seriously is nothing else to do. I'm a loser. Fuck you.
She cuts herself. Never too deep,never enough to die. But enough to feel the pain. Enough to feel the scream inside.
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[11 Jul 2005|02:23pm] |
I dont want to go to work.
I get off at 9:30, so I guess it could be worse.
I wish I could just completely get over Jerrad. I'm tired of arguing. I'm tired of caring. &&& I'm REALLY tired of crying. I'm just so used to him being there. He was the person that I talked to all night. He was the person I called when I first woke up or when I couldnt sleep. I told him everying. He was my best friend. He was there for me when I didnt have anyone else. After he's gone, who will I have? :(I'm so used to him being there. Thats why I love hanging out with Courtney, Fetzer, JJ and John... they keep my mind off of him. I dont know if I should give up and move on... or keep trying. :( Falling in love has got to be one of the most retarded things I have ever done. Things change so quick. Love is fucking bullshit.
Now that I totally depressed myself... I'm going to go wash some clothes and start getting ready for work.
:(
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[11 Jul 2005|12:41am] |
Don't you hate when people act like they're your friend and then totally ignore you? I do. Especially when they pretend like they really care about you and want to try to be friends again. Whatever though.
I hung out with Courtney and some other people last night. We had a pre-hurricane party. :)
Courtney and I rode through Castle Ridge looking for Marc. And some guy decided that he wanted to talk a little shit. So, being the bitch that I am... I talk shit right back to his stupidass. Then after all the shit talking was done, we go to leave and Courtney decides to be nice and apologize to the mexicans for making a scene... then they say something and Courtney said "Huh?! We'll fuck you up too!" So, we get a kick out of all the shit talking... and ride around Castle Ridge a couple times talking shit to any and everyone outside. :) It was great. Guess you had to be there...
All this hurricane bullshit is really pissing me off. It wasnt even that big of a deal. I mean a little wind and rain never killed anyone. Right?
I haven't talked to Fetzer, JJ or John in a couple days. I really miss them.
My sister's re-doing my journal... :)
I'm really going to miss her... she's leaving the 21st (I believe) to go to Brazil. But, I know she's going to have a great time down there.
I really want to be with Jerrad... but, I know that I have to get my life back right before I can even consider having any kind of relationship with him. And it's hard. But, I do know that IF we are meant to be together then we will be.
Comment, bitches! :-*
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[08 Jul 2005|12:55am] |
I tricked all of you mother fuckers. :)
Not really.
I've decided to stick with this journal instead of the other one.
A lot has happened since I last updated.
I will be updating a lot more now. :)
Me and Jerrad are doing OKAY. Things could be better. But, if we're meant to be together then we will be.
I've started hanging out with Fetzer, John, JJ and Shedrick. They all rock. I love them all. :)
Today:
Got a call from Fetzer. I go to his house to pick him up. Then we go get John. Then go to Courtney's because we were going to go to the mall and thought Courtney wanted to go. She didnt. Shedrick decides to go instead. So, on the way out of Daleville we stop by some little store and guess who pulls up with me, Fetzer and John in the car? JERRAD. He follows me to Shed's house to make sure I drop them off then made me go with him to get his hair cut. Thing is... I fooled him. :) So, I go back to Shed's to pick them up and they have Rachel's car. We drop my car off at my Granny's and take Rachel's to Dothan. We go to the mall and have fun & shit. Then we leave the mall and get pulled over. I HATE DOTHAN COPS. FUCK THEM ALLLLL! They searched ALL of us. Had us sitting in the fucking hot ass sun for over an hour. They found a little bit of weed in the car and said it was "enough for a pin joint"... wtf is THAT going to do to us? No one claimed it. Rachel and her parents had to come up there. Thank God no one got in trouble. But, those cops were pissed as hell because they couldnt find shit. :) BITCHES. bahaha.
I have to call Jerrad and meet my sister outside.
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[30 May 2005|03:52am] |
For those of you who enjoy reading my journal and want to continue reading it, go to...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/_fasn8me
I'm too lazy to think of a new name, so i changed some things.
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[30 May 2005|02:39am] |
I seriously am a loser.
It's like i'm addicted to lj. :)
bah.
I'm pissed. VERY pissed.
This is most likely going to be my last journal entry.
I have decided to make a new journal.
It will be friends only. :)
WARNING for all you people out there. :)
ROSLYN DANIELS just so happens to be a two-faced lying fat bitch.
Yes, I said it.
I think it's really funny how you tell some people one thing, yet tell me something completely different. And this whole time you had me thinking you were some great friend. I mean, I would take up for you when people would say stuff about you and especially when people would tell me stuff like you werent a good friend. But the truth is, your nothing but a piece of shit. :) Too harsh? Ready to feel like shit? So, how about everytime me and Roslyn would get in a fight or an arguement, I'd just be like fuck it... she was just someone to hang out with when everyone else was busy. Anyway, she would always call me and be like "are you mad?" and "we need to talk" and bullshit like that, so me being the nice person that I am... would go and be friends with the fat bitch again.
Truth be told, I tried some stuff with Roslyn and her boyfriend and his friends a couple times. And I guess she told some people that thats the reason why I lost so much weight. I mean, everytime I did it, she did it. So if that IS the reason I lost so much weight, dont you think SHE would have lost weight too?
So, just to let everyone know... THAT IS NOT THE REASON.
I mean, look at Roslyn and then you tell me. :)
Not to mention, there is SO much shit that I can tell people about Roslyn and get her fucked up and make everyone hate her and pretty much destroy her meaningless fucked up life... but I'm better than that. Why lower MYSELF to make her look bad when she does a pretty damn good job at doing that herself.
Oh, and Roslyn said she was going to "kick my ass", funny thing I think.
Yeah... so i'm going to try and figure this whole journal thing out again.
Hope this amused you as much as fat girls named Roslyn amuse me. :)
Did I spell 'amuse' right? :-/
Whatever.
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[27 May 2005|12:53am] |
I HAVE MY CELLPHONE BACK!
(if you have the number... make it ringgg!)
:)
Update on today...
Me and Katrina decided to go swimming. Got kicked out of a pool. Went to my Grannys to swim. Almost got attacked by a killer wasp. Crazy shit that was.
I then went to work at 6:15, talked about sex while i was there, then I got off at 11:15.
Me and Becca seem to have somewhat of a misunderstanding...
Please, any and everyone comment...
Is my hair BLONDE or LIGHT BROWN?!
I say light brown.
She says... blonde.
You be the judge. :)
I want my journal to be friends only.
I also want to make a new one.
So if anyone can think of a new name for me, please comment and tell me.
As a matter of fact, EVERYONE that reads this needs to comment and tell me what my new name should be AND what color you think my hair is.
Yeah. Thats all.
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[26 May 2005|01:34am] |
I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.
okay... not really. But I was...
I had a HORRIBLE day today.
Jerrad is being the BIGGEST asshole ever lately. I broke up with him the other day. Yes guys, I'm single. ;) We always break up and then hook back up like 2 hours later... so i'm thinking he's trying to teach me a lesson so I wont break up with him anymore. But chances are we're going to get back together within the next day or 2. So guys, I doubt i'll be single for long. Sorryyy. ha.
I got pulled over tonight by 2 deputies that work with my dad for running a damn stop sign. They were like 'I bet John would be mad if we gave you a ticket for running a stop sign" I was like "damn skippy"... okay not really... but still. Jerks.
This one is for Stephanie... I'm not sure if your even going to remember any of this... but hey, you cracked me up and made my day 100x's better!
SPCEddiesGurl: and im drucnk
AngelDHS04: hahahaha!
SPCEddiesGurl: u makin funnk of my angel
SPCEddiesGurl: hehe
SPCEddiesGurl: i dont blmae u im meosodessd
SPCEddiesGurl: up!!!!!!!!
*Translations:
"and i'm drunk"
"you making fun of me angel?"
"i dont blame you, i'm messed up!"
SPCEddiesGurl: dasnmn my fingerews to he;;ll
AngelDHS04: lmao
*Translation:
"damn my fingers to hell"
SPCEddiesGurl: my hadasn are terrorststa
AngelDHS04: omg... lol!
*Translation:
"my hands are terrorists"
I'm trying to get her to post the whole conversation though.
I love you Stephanie! Thanks for the laughs... I need them!
Well after laughing my ass off... I'm headed to bed.
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[24 May 2005|01:49am] |
I want someone to re-do my journalll... like... NOWWW! :) Please.
I didnt get to see Jerrad today, due to the simple fact that he had to go to work. Work is bullshit. :) I did however, get to see Katrina! We went and helped Granny out at Ryan's & got a free meal, which is always great. I got to see her Mom, whom I've missed dearly. :) We hung out with Matthew for about 30 minutes and got to drive his truck and play Mike Jones. Then we all parted ways.
Being that its almost 2 am & I'm bored out of my mind... might explain why i'm actually going to write what i'm about to. I was going to write it anyway, just not yet. Here it goes though...
#1... I hate bullshit people. Especially bullshit friends.
Jessica isn't really a bullshit person/friend, besides the fact that she told someone that Jerrad 'hits me'. It's one thing to tell someone something, but its another thing to tell someone something that is COMPLETELY WRONG. And for you doing that, I am utterly pissed off at her.
On to the next...
Roslyn however, IS a bullshit person/friend.
Her goal in life, is to make things as horrible as humanly possibe for me and Jerrad. She hates him. But, he hates her too. His reasons are understandable. Hers arent. I dont call her boyfriend names or say stuff to him or about him. All she does is try to piss Jerrad off and break us up. WE ARE NOT GOING TO BREAK UP. GIVE UP. She's not a true friend. I'm not sure why. I know she did or said something. To be honest, I dont really want to know what she did because I'm sure if i did know, I would do anything in my power to fuck her and her life up. It would be best if I didnt know. All I want, is to get my clothes back from her and to be done with her and her bullshit.
A word of advice... dont let other people bring you down. :) It's not worth it. Just remember that "Bitches aint shit" and life will be just fine and dandy.
I have to work tomorrow from 6:15 until 10:15.
Work is bullshit! :)
I was reading Janessa's journal and I REALLY want to hang out with her and Joey and Josh... they seem like they have SO much fun together. I'm just asking for one time. So, Janessa... if your reading this... make it happen. :)
I'm going to bed now. Goodnightttt.
♥
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[23 May 2005|02:53am] |
Yeah, its been awhile since I last updated... I've been busy.
Just incase you were wondering, me and Jerrad are doing great. He really is a great guy. There's more to it than most people know. People assume things. But, I love him with all my heart.
Not much has happened. Nothing interesting.
Katrina & I talked on aim tonight. I've really missed her a lot. I can honestly say that she has and always will be my best friend. No other friend even compares to her. I just hope that everyone finds a friend like I found in her. I just hate that I put her through so much and in the end shes always there for me. I've changed though & I only hope that we can be as close as we once were before Autumn came along. But Katrina, I just want you to know that regardless of what happened in our past, what was said, and what was done... I was and will always be here for you. I never stopped loving you. You are my best friend.
Tomorrow should be a good day if it goes as planned. :)
I'm supposed to hang out with Katrina and talk to her at around noon, then at 3 I'm supposed to go see Jerrad.
I'm so happy with the way things are turning out. I can honestly say that I'm happier now, than I've been in a LONG time.
I'm tired of trying to please others.
I love Becca & I love Matthew. They both rock.
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